I was born and raised Catholic so Jesus has always been a part of my life, but sometimes it has been a one-way street. I came to know Jesus through my parents and specially my grandparents. They made going to church and practicing their faith a priority. I have always been active in my church but my relationship with Jesus is something that I'm always striving to do better in.
From a young age, I've always know there was something greater than me. The question of "how has He worked in your life?" threw me for a moment. He doesn't work in my life. He IS my life. the day I accepted Jesus as my Savior and recognized that He ultimately is God was a life-changing event. I was physically and sexually abused in my teen years. If not for the rosary and knowing my earthly Father was looking down on me, praying for me, I wouldn't be here to give praise and thanks to my Heavenly Father. In each area of my life, I try my hardest to put Christ on the throne. I'm human, and some days are so much harder than others. Those are the days when I sit at the feet of Jesus and confess my faults, my sins. He is always ready to forgive them and allow me to start with a clean slate. There is an old hymn, My Hope is Built on Nothing Less. The words encapsulate my hope in Christ as my Savior, Redeemer, Father, and Friend.
When I was six months old, I was adopted from South Korea. I remain grateful that I was provided an opportunity to be raised in the United States, however I experienced trauma growing up in my household. My exposure to the Lord growing up consisted of my mother dropping me off at church and coming by later to pick me up. There was a lack of joy and community in my life.
Caregiving was not my idea of a calling. Yet, God had other plans and equipped me to surrender and provide care to my dear mother. My mother had been going downhill after breast cancer and a diagnosis of supranuclear palsy (Parkinson's on steroids). One night at 2 AM, she required an emergency surgery for a ruptured colon. Her recovery would require a colostomy bag. As her only child and a mother of 3 young children myself, I was stunned and could only pray. My prayer warrior friends, family, and parish community at St. EAS helped me petition God to save her and restore her to health. A MRSA infection curtailed her recovery and for weeks required me to clean and dress her gaping abdomen multiple times a day. There's a good reason why I am not a nurse, and I prayed that I would not gag or cry every time I changed her bandages. Only by the grace of God was I able to lovingly care for her. God equipped me for the task at hand and eventually she recovered.Three years later, while in a nursing home and bedridden, my dear mother raised her head and hands and went to be with those angels who welcomed her to Heaven. I never once felt resentful for the hours I spent with her and the nursing duties I performed. God got me through those years and we had many wonderful conversations, shared laughs, and moments of peaceful silence and prayer. God granted me the gift of my mother and the ability to be what she needed me to be. What I would give to have just ten minutes in her presence again! She was a model of humility, unconditional love, and vulnerability. She was Jesus for me.
God has always been pursuing me (as He does all of us), but my life changed when I began pursuing Him. I had always gone to church, tried to follow the rules and be "good" but I didn't have much of a personal relationship with Jesus. I felt like church and prayer were an obligation, and I when I went to church I mostly felt unworthy and unable to live up to who I thought God wanted me to be. I tried to overcome that feeling of unworthiness by achieving, accomplishing and acquiring more. I looked for validation from others to put me in good standing with God. However, after all my achievements, I still felt empty and I was tired of striving. I started asking questions like, "What am I here for?" and "Is this all there is?" Luckily, God blessed me with several people who pointed me back to Jesus and the truth of the Gospel: I didn't need to strive, I could simply surrender.
The kids missed the school bus and I was driving fast up the ramp and over the freeway. A driver ran the red light and T-boned our vehicle, sending us careening up onto the cement wall over the freeway and headed over the top. In the blink of an eye, our high profile vehicle changed trajectory and landed on its left side, nestled up against the cement wall. The policeman later said he had no idea why we didn't flip and fall onto the freeway, causing almost certain death for myself and our three children.In the chaos, I lost my glasses and the kids were hanging from their car seats and seatbelt. All I could hear was screaming and steam escaping something. I shook my head, started calming the children, and a man reached down into the vehicle to help remove the children one at a time. He helped me climb out, found my glasses, and waited for the ambulance to arrive. Once we were all strapped in the ambulance, I distinctly heard my father say, "You're alright now, Kid. I'm outta here."
Growing up Catholic, I always believed in God, but I really didn’t know Jesus until I was in my late twenties. At that time, I was happily married but there was one thing I didn't have that I'd been longing for; a child. After years of infertility testing and treatments. my husband and I were still just a family of two. We applied for adoption through Catholic Charities and were told there were no guarantees that we would ever have a child. It could happen next month or never, no one could predict whether a child would be available for us. I felt so defeated!
I am a cradle Catholic and went to Catholic schools from elementary through high school. Growing up, I took my 'faith for granted. We were taken to Mass the first Friday of each month, on required Holy days and celebrated reconciliation twice a year. My first encounter noticing God in my life was my senior year during a retreat. We were celebrating Mass and when it came time for the Our Father, we formed a circle, joined hands and sang. It was an incredibly powerful moment. I remember getting goosebumps and feeling as if I was floating. The Holy Spirit was present and active while we were praying. From that moment on, I craved feeling close to God. I have been fortunate to attend or be a part of numerous retreats as an adult and have always experienced those "God" moments.
I've come to the conclusion that I am a "Works of Mercy Catholic". I am a list maker - I make checklists for the day, grocery lists, menus, and so on. So, I personally encounter God through the Corporal Works for Mercy. I announce Jesus to others by recognizing Christ in those in need: